• Ruth Towell

Lockdown Reflections - Fyzz

As we are standing on the turning point of the lockdown being eased in the UK, I decided to embark on a new portrait project. Capturing this moment in time, with reflections from individuals about this season and thoughts about how a post-lockdown world might look.

Each portrait is a window into an individual's life, shot through the window of their home capturing the invisible separation that lockdown brings.

This is Fyzz, have a read of her story:

"Before lockdown I was working as a librarian and homework club supervisor in a large comprehensive school. I’m also a musician and played regularly with my own band, and also in my church worship band. I enjoyed festivals, gigs and events with friends or family. I feel like many of the things I enjoyed most in life – that defined me and brought me joy - are now illegal!

Lockdown meant a complete and radical change of life. Suddenly the family were all permanently at home! We always have an autism-friendly structure to the family day, but now I had to incorporate home-school and substantial support. That transition was not easy at first but we got there.

My children are great company and very funny, generally we get on very well. I know that a lot of people will be loath to give up their pyjamas, but I never stopped ironing here - one of my kids is still in a shirt, tie, and suit trousers every day, and usually a pocket watch and stovepipe hat - so some things don't change!

I miss playing live and at church like a physical heartache. I don't enjoy living quietly, and am used to bouncing off other people. It's like my batteries are never fully charged. When we're free to play live music again, I'm looking to work on some of the new songs I've written with the band.

It has felt very important to create something out of our thoughts and feelings during this period by writing songs during lockdown. I’m sure some people are really struggling. There's never been a more important time to understand each other, but with people living in their bubbles, it can be hard to get perspective.

I hope we can appreciate our freedoms more when we have them. It's good to have the space to value that. But so many people have so much uncertainty and may feel they have little to lose. There will be more protests, more riots, and more divisiveness, if our leaders are not prepared to listen.

Some soul searching has gone on, with people looking afresh at what really matters - valuing people for their contribution to society, not just their wages. I pray for a kinder, fairer future. I will continue to sing in support of it. And I believe it can happen."

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